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Relationships and Cystic Fibrosis
Jul 01, 2018 at 7:09 PM

I'm yet again admitted to the hospital for another two weeks, and as I sit here I am made aware of the stress CF has put on my relationship. I've been with the same man for almost 6 years now and i can honestly say up until recently, he was supportive and never lead on to how hard my condition has been on him.

Today we sat down and talked about our future, as we often do, and he told me about how scared he was about us having children and a future. No one tells you about how CF will effect your relationship. They talk about your lungs and your body but never your psyche. We've been fighting recently, and he's been ignoring me. He visits the hospital less and I can't help but feel like i'm loosing him. Sometimes I want to loose him because it'd be easier to not worry about him... I'm afraid our relationship will always be strained if we do stay together...

I wish he was more supportive and less selfish. I wish I was able to put
more energy into him, and not always be the one who has to be taken care of. Sometimes I blame myself for our problems...

Who knew my lungs would have such an impact on my heart...